Oh Sh–, I missed my high school reunion again.

5 Sep

I woke up early this morning with a stuffy right nostril. I blew my nose three times in bed before going downstairs to urinate, get a drink, and swallow a stuffy nose pill. I hate when I blow my nose and it clears me for two seconds and then I’m stuffy again. So I found myself sitting on the kitchen floor with the cats at 3:30 a.m. trying to decide if I should just stay up. My alarm was set for 5.

I realized that some of my high school classmates were probably still up drinking and reminiscing. My 20 year class reunion was last night in Pana, IL, 70 miles northeast of here. It was the fourth reunion I missed. I’m o for 4. I think I would have had a good time, but the problem is getting me there. Aside from knocking me out with a ball bat, throwing me in the trunk, driving me to Pana, and propping me up at a table, I don’t think there’s another way to get me to go. I would wake up with a headache and would be pissed that you hit me in the head, but then it would probably be okay, better as the night progressed. I hesitantly attended Jennifer’s 10 year reunion and had a decent time. The first hour was the hardest, but, in the end, I was glad I went.

I played football and baseball in high school, but otherwise I wasn’t a joiner. I didn’t go to high school parties. I didn’t say much and had no close friends. A true introvert, the chaos of the crowded hallways between classes easily unnerved me. I had some fun times, but I hesitate to say that high school was fun, overall. It was tolerable. I tried hard to go unnoticed and I succeeded. So with that, it’s hard to justify attending a reunion at this point. However, it feels like with each five years that pass I’m a wee bit more comfortable with the idea of going, so watch out in 2030, because that just may be the year I go.

Well, it’s 6 now; I’ve been up for 2.5 hours. My nose issues have dried up. And I’m hungry.


2 Responses to “Oh Sh–, I missed my high school reunion again.”

  1. 4eternalsunshine September 5, 2010 at 7:21 am #

    Impressive that you didn’t drink/drugs in HS to cope with the anxiety.I needed help so bad. God, I pray my kids will be ok in HS.The thought terrifies me…
    How did you meet J? Was it an arranged marriage? hee hee 😉 I have never attended a reunion “yet” either.Was invited to a little get together @ Laurie’s last weekend..didn’t go. But I honestly think it was cuz I didn’t want to, not because of my other crazy issues that keep me from the grocery store and Walmart 🙂 2030 reunion is gonna be so much fun! Hope you blog about it 😉 lol

    • fightn4it September 5, 2010 at 3:34 pm #

      I never saw and alcohol or drugs in HS because I was sitting at home or it might have turned out different. 🙂 Yeah, with J, it sort of WAS arranged…by Aimee. They were in HS together and Aimee let me know that J “liked” me or whatever. I would drive by her house late at night, stalker-like, and found the courage one night to stop. The kids…it’s hard NOW to look at photos of years past (like your post). When I want to torture myself, I sit and think about how it will be looking at those same pictures when they’re in HS suffering through emotional problems.

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